Why should you be one, too?
“Can you remember when you first realized you were an “I,” understanding that you had this completely different and separate life from other people?
The first time I realized I was an individual one and other people were other individual ones was when I was about six or seven years old. I was taking a bath and looking at my feet. I was training my littlest toe to move without the other toes. That’s when it hit, and it was a very heavy, adrenaline-filled realization.”
AA wrote that.
My “I” experience was when I was about 8 years old. My parents’ bathroom had mirrored walls. I was staring at my reflection and I started thinking, verbally, “I’m me. I’m… me. I’m me.”
It put me into a mental loop whose conclusion was, “That’s as far as it goes.”
A few times I recreated this, because it was such an invigorating, mysterious thought. To this day, I still have that same conclusion, and it never goes any further.
Jake wrote that
For me it was when I was 7, laying on the rug in my bedroom, completely alone, playing with my pirate island lego set. I had just created a whole backstory and scenario for my pirates, a sweeping epic of adventure and intrigue, even a little romance. And then I thought about sharing it with someone. Having a friend or my mom come and join in. I realized then, however, that I was unique. No one would be able to see or understand the story and fantasy the way I did. I stopped and thought about it for a long time. No one would be able to experience anything the same way I did, ever. No matter how much I explained it or tried to share. I remember feeling very lonely and laying down on my bed to stare at the ceiling. I still remind myself that no one experiences things the same way that I do and that I should keep that in mind.
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I once cried because I couldn't draw a tree the way I saw it in my head. Granted, it was kindergarten, but it was a defining moment. One of my lifelong goals has been to
ride a horse through a shallow lake, seriously, it's in my grade school journal. I lived in Barbados for a while where I almost lost my toe, which has stood as a metaphor in
my life for that time. I watch a lot of movies and sometimes I fear that it is cutting into my ability to learn foreign languages. Oh yeah, I like to write beautiful, validated code.
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